Dear God, how deep, truly, is my trust in you? I do not depend on you enough. My attitude of self-propulsion contradicts all my declarations of faith. I say, “Guide me, Lord,” yet I so rarely heed this guidance. When faced with difficulty, I say, “Help me, Lord,” and then go right ahead acting as if I must be the architect and builder of my own solutions.
Lord, what would it look like if I truly relied upon you? Can I improve my attitude in this area? Can I have greater faith, and not behave as captain of my own destiny?
Lord, let me have more faith. Fill me with greater humility. Take away my delusions of self-sufficiency. Let me rely on you not because I ought, but because I must. Thy will be done.
(Letter #886)
Daily Letters to God 