Monday, July 31, 2017

Dear God, let me move slowly today.

As I begin considering all that faces me today, anxiety grows. Obligations crowd in. But when I am able to focus intently on the present moment, these termites of worry cease.

In meditation, I am taught not that the object is to empty the mind, but to practice focusing on the present, to the exclusion of all else. The more I focus on now, on what is before me, the more slowly I move, the more efficiently I function – and the more useful to you I am, Lord.

My mind darts from idea to idea, like a paper cup in the wind.

Slow my thoughts, O Lord. Slow my movements. Let my awareness of you, here, now, in this present moment, grow. Let me move with care. Let me seek guidance moment by moment, slowly considering your will for me.

Let me act, single-mindedly and with intention on your behalf.

(Letter #943)

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Dear God, your creation sings to me quietly: the birds, the still, clear air, the mist on the grass. I struggle to list what I am grateful for, yet it is all around me for me to see, staring back at me.

Lord, let my attitude be right. You give me the gift of this day; let me unwrap it with gratitude. Let me search for your guidance in every moment. Direct my feet, guide my hands, control my words – that I may be your instrument today.

These things of beauty I see all around me – I am one of them. I am part of your creation. Let me be a demonstration of your love for some other soul who may be looking at this world through eyes of sorrow or doubt. Grant me willingness to be your beacon today.

(Letter #942)

Letters to Resume

Dear friends, I am happy to say I plan to begin publishing daily letters to God again, starting Sunday 7/30. I have been continuing writing daily, but have been not been posting.

Thank you for your patience and messages of love.

Summer Break from Publishing

Dear friends: for the rest of July 2017, I am taking a break from publishing these daily letters. 

During that time please rest assured I will still be writing them — they are my form of prayer — but I will not be transcribing and sending every morning.

At the end of the month I will reassess whether to resume publishing. Thank you for your friendship. 

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Dear God, I awaken agitated, thinking for the most part about myself. I am fearful of what may happen, what interactions I will be a part of, what I may be called on to do.

When I closely examine my worries, I see that pride and ego lie at the center of them.

I am fearful that my standing among my fellows will be diminished – or, indeed, that is not so high as I like to believe. I am fearful that some reversal will take place that will alter my life. I am afraid that I will be found out to be an imposter, unworthy. Even when my worry reflects concern for others, as when I am fearful about what may happen to a loved one, the fear is really based on anxiety about how I will feel about what happens to them.

Everything comes back to this. Self-centered thinking.

Lord, please improve my thinking. Get my attitude right. Reprogram me. Take my thoughts and make them into something positive.

I could, indeed, just as easily focus on positive aspects of my circumstances as negative. Instead of fearing that I may lose standing, I can be glad for those friends that I have. Instead of worrying about must what must be done today, I can be enthusiastically curious about what I may get to do next.

God, I know that I cannot change my thinking all by myself. Change me. Guide my thoughts, heal my mind. Grant me knowledge of your will for me, and make me willing to act in conformance to it. Please deliver to me a sign of guidance.

Let me please remember that you offer joy. To be miserable, anxious, fretful – this is all my own option. But I can also choose joy. Help me to do so, O Lord.

(Letter #921)

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Dear God, for some time I have been dissatisfied with external circumstances. My physical body is not to my liking. My professional life is enveloped in tension. My finances are challenging. My behavior in family relations causes friction.

Yet, Lord, as I sit in this room and listen to the sounds around me, and feel the ground beneath my feet, I recognize that none of these outward conditions are as I believe them to be. All of my vexations arise from the judgments and stories I tell myself about what are, in reality, neutral phenomena.

The tension and aggravation I feel is entirely due to my attitude. I can be displeased that my body is not leaner, or I can be grateful that I have physical health. I can be despondent that I do not have greater recognition in my career, or I can be delighted at the stability and security my job provides. I can be frustrated at the reactions of those around me, or I can be comforted in the fact that I am loved.

If my attitude is the result stories I myself tell, then it must be so that what I perceive as reality is in fact unreal.

I am a spiritual being and indeed construct my own reality. Lord, let me bring my thinking in line with your will for me. Only when I draw near to you do I truly feel whole. When I perceive things going well in my life, I may have fleeting comfort – but when I align my thoughts to your will I have true peace.

Lord, let me release the stories I tell that do not serve me. Let me be filled with love and peace. Let me know I am safe to my core. Let me accept the freedom you offer. Thy will be done.

(Letter #920)

Friday, July 7, 2017

Dear God, I feel diminished at work. I feel beset on all sides by criticism, tasks are undone and coming due, I fear that I am just a few weeks away from learning that I am not needed.

Lord what if this is a time of trial, here for a purpose? The trial may not in fact be comprised of external trouble – it may be my attitude. Seen objectively, this period may be best characterized as being marked by irrational fears. What if it is the fear itself that is my test? I am not being asked to conquer adversity, but to face fear.

Lord, I know what to do about fear. You have taught me. Deepen faith. Seek to be of service. Try to discern and act on your will and guidance. Take the next right action, however small.

Let me be willing to do these things. The test brought by this fear is rooted in temptation. It is comforting to wallow in my self-absorbed fear and so to become useless to you and to the world. Instead of acting, I dither and fret.

My attitude will not be improved by thinking about it. Lord, let me act. Let me meet this test by seeking and doing your will, regardless of my emotions.

(Letter #919)