Wednesday, June 29, 2017

Dear God, sometimes I feel overwhelmed by what appears to be an insurmountable to-do list, containing tasks I do not know whether or how to manage. The reality, though, is usually that what challenges I face are in fact well within my capacity – and that there is one among them that generates fear. Maybe I have to speak publicly, or perform in front of a superior. Or the task is in some other way a high-stakes one.

When faced with such things, like today, I feel besieged. The looming challenge blots out everything else. I cannot be effective, I can barely bring myself to think of anything else.

Lord, I cannot live like this, flitting from worry to worry. Let me please have an attitude of obedience and service. Let me bend every ounce of my will toward doing your bidding – let this displace the selfish worrying about my performance. Let me seek and do your will today, and let this become my freedom from bondage.

I am enslaved by my fears, but they are self-generated. Take them away. Heal my thinking.

(Letter #910)