Monday, September 25, 2017

Dear God, the most difficult task for me is sometimes to wait quietly. I am agitated, expectant.

All the things in my life that are not as they ought to be, all the things that I wish were different, all the challenges that face me daily – my exertions directed at these things are so often nought. Instead you call me to wait, quietly and calmly, until you improve conditions in your time and in your manner.

Lord, let me have true devotion to you. Let me rest quietly, receiving the warmth of your love.

I perceive the ineffectiveness of my actions as weakness, impotence. Yet, if I look differently, I might see that you in fact are granting me luxury. I am blessed with leisure, not afflicted with paralysis.

Let me view this day with gratitude. Let me do that which you impel me to do, no less but also no more. Let me exert my energies in finding you. Thy will be done.

(Letter #999)