Wednesday, October 9, 2019

Let my prayers be not catalogs of woe. Let me not complain, embittered and sullen.

Lord! Let my day be one filled with rejoicing and gratitude. I live. I have family. Friends. Opportunities to help are all around me. Above all, I have you.

Let me carry good news today, with cheer.

(Letter #1,733)

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

I fear equally action and idleness, change and stasis, relationships and isolation. Each and its opposite.

Lord, these events of the world are inconsequential. Let me fix my attention upon you, upon seeking you, upon the working out of your will in this world.

Let me turn my hands to labor. Occupied, let me become too busy for this worry.

(Letter #1,732)

Monday, October 7, 2019

Weary, weak, frightened – come to me and soothe my wounds, the ones that have not yet been made, the ones I fear are on the way.

Shine on me, warm my limbs. You know each weakness and fear, each source of regret and remorse. Under the pressing sunshine, let me discover health.

All these things I cannot do – step in for me, save me, be strong where I am weak.

(Letter #1,731)

Saturday, October 5, 2019

Do I see this world rightly? What illusions do I harbor?

At dawn, I tell myself that you, Lord, support me and give me care. I tell myself of the gift upon gift you have showered upon me, with great expectation of ever more.

These words self-spoken, Lord, are hollow. The proof is in my acting. I rise from my seat and set about making ready to conquer the day. I protect vulnerable areas, I gird myself for battle, I catalog problems to solve.

Where is my faith now? You are a mountain, upon which cities may be built, yet instead I see you as an oak, from which I must dangle.

Lord, let me feel you underfoot. I am supported from below, how possibly could I fall?

(Letter #1,729)

Friday, October 4, 2019

Shatter my self-sufficiency and open my heart to all the ways I need your help.

These easy tasks over which I feel mastery, let them become insoluble.

Let me, in my confusion and terror, discover gratitude and dependence.

(Letter #1,728)