Thursday, July 4, 2019

Given a gift of an hour filled with ease, I resent that there are not more of them. Pondering a day of rest, I wonder nervously how I will ever renew effort when it is over.

Let me, Lord, sit still for this moment without worry. The next hour, and the next, will arrive in due course.

Let me inhabit myself today.

(Letter #1,636)

Wednesday, July 3, 2019

Let me be granted right aims. Let me hunger for righteousness. Let me not seek selfish ends.

But lo! The day presents me with moment upon moment in which I place myself first. How will a get that, what will I gain if I do this. Self pollutes my thinking and chokes out all else.

Self, as it grows, makes me prideful, filled with sloth and self-pity.

Grant me, Lord, humility, acceptance, diligence. Let me seek these things. Let me want to seek these things. Let me pursue you and not my misshapen self.

(Letter #1,635)

Tuesday, July 2, 2019

Let my fears become enthusiasm, my dread become curiosity. Each stone in today’s path looms heavy. I do not see their beauty as they gleam in the sunshine.

Lord, open my eyes and my heart. Make me enthusiastic, curious, filled with faith.

Your will for me, where will it take me? Let me go there.

(Letter #1,634)

Monday, July 1, 2019

What do I fear? Does it still assail me?

For so long I have lived a trembling, furtive life. Bit by bit, I have cracked open my heart to you. At what point did my fear leave me? And why, Lord, do I approach the day still cowering?

Bring my demeanor in line with my new reality, Lord. You have delivered to me courage. Let me live it.

(Letter #1,633)

Sunday, June 30, 2019

Dear God, onpassing, ongiving, forward-looking, spreading love – let this day be a diamond that I polish through gifts to others. Let it be a river.

You have released me from despair and dissolution and granted me this day.

Let your gifts not stop with me. Let me be no stagnant pond.

(Letter #1,632)

Saturday, June 29, 2019

Dear God, early will I seek you. Before the others stir, before the day creatures roam, before awareness of my needs crushes me. The dawn announces a full day of your sunshine, and I will have already sought you.

Why must I surrender so early to your will, dear Lord? It is my way of devotion. Let my duties to you come before all else today.

The sun will already be shining upon my shoulders as I go out from here. Let me walk erect under your gaze.

(Letter #1,631)

Friday, June 28, 2019

Dear God, I cannot recall what troubled me just a few days ago. Today’s worries occlude it. And tomorrow will dispel today’s.

Lord, let me release these cares, a sacrifice to you. While they are with me, they loom so large. Phantoms.

Open my eyes to the ease you have granted me, if only I will grasp it. You have placed gifts here before me. Let me gather them up.

Shine upon me, sunshine, and burn away the mist.

(Letter #1,630)